Very depressing lately. It seems like I am missing out on so much stuff. Shift work really sucks, I only get 2 months of work normal days, and the last time I worked the days, my wife ended up working extra hours at work so we never did really get to do much as a family. Nothing gets done around the house because we are always working. I am either working strange hours or she is working extra hours without being paid for them, her boss is a total ass who doesn’t believe in management being paid for the time they put in, just the normal 8 straight hours. On our one day off together, if we get a day off together, we rush around trying to get the things done like cutting the grass, doing laundry, cleaning the house, and then on the next day, we have appointments for our son which last all day long.
Our friendships have all drifted apart, as they all work normal Monday – Friday jobs and have time to go do things on weekends, and boy do they go, they go on trips, ballooning, shows, games, you name it. Us? The only trips we have been in in 5 years is a 2 days trip to Mt Rushmore and then weekend trips to visit my mom. We never get a head, its one step forward and two steps back.
Sometimes it would be so easy to just put a gun to my head and be done with it. I am sick of being told NO, we can’t do this or we can’t get that.
Tomorrow, I will cut the yard and lot if it doesn’t rain and then I have to stain the back fence because the people who built a house behind us are putting up a fence and I will never be able to get back there again to get it done, after that it will be time to get cleaned up and ready for bed so I can get up early and take Dawnell to the airport and then take my son to his appointments for the day.
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NAPA Sucks!
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Number of Operations Iraqi Freedom and Enduring Freedom
casualties as confirmed by U.S. Central Command: 5582
Deaths by Conflict
Operation Iraqi Freedom: 4398
Operation Enduring Freedom: 1184
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22 year old Marine Cpl. Paul J. Miller
July 25th, 2010 at 18:01
I know how you feel Ted – been there, done that, for YEARS! The gun – forget very fast about it … but if there’s ANY chance – try to change something in terms of your or Darnell’s schedule – or even job. Believe me, life’s too short for going on like this for a long period of time and being frustrated to the bone … it’s just not worth it! Think of it …
July 25th, 2010 at 21:31
I won’t use the gun on my self. Although sometimes I feel it would be easier but it would just be too easy. I figure if I am gonna go, I am gonna go in a BIG way.
I keep applying for government jobs but with my speciality, it is hard to get jobs that are not shift work. With Dawnell, her boss is just an ass.
July 28th, 2010 at 23:50
Don’t let it get to you Ted. For years I have felt much the sameway as you. I agree with Karin about the gun. Just forget about it. As for your line of work being shift work and Dawnell’s boss being an ass, I don’t what the answer is. Just keep on the positive side and somehow it will work out. Take care.